“I will honestly never be the same after all of this. I believe I am a better man for having survived the last 6 years. I am thankful I didn’t kill myself when the pressure and pain seemed unbearable and that I didn’t get lost in my macho feeling of inadequacy, resentment and anger when it seemed they would consume me. I have become a better man because of my wife and my infertility. My wife’s unflinching desire to see my eyes in our baby is inspiring. I hope that I can be as brave as she is someday. She is truly my hero.”

What would make a man say these words on national TV—the same man who swore his wife, Lisa, to secrecy regarding his dismal sperm count early in their parenthood pursuit? Why would Denny Ceizyk write Almost A Father, a book that reveals all the gory and humiliating details of evolving from strong silent bystander to passionate empathetic advocate for his wife’s unquenchable urge to find their soul baby?

The answer starts with the loss of a baby four years into their infertility journey. The whisper of a song in Denny’s soul, combined with the brief flicker of motherhood he saw in Lisa’s eyes before the miscarriage, inspire him to persevere despite the odds and unbearable heartbreak of each failure.

Almost A Father takes the reader on a 2,310-day, 17-hour, and 1-minute roller coaster ride through every infertility procedure known to medical science, while recounting how two people can fall in love, out of passion, and find their way back.